West Park Hospital, Epsom – A Personal History

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“It was July, 1969. I had swallowed a bottle of aspirin. My life didn’t seem worth living. I had broken up with my boyfriend, I had just found my father’s death certificate, saying he had died of a drug overdose, and not a heart attack as my mother had told me.

Not having any one to turn to, my overdose was more a cry for help than a desire to die. I was only 18 and couldn’t cope. Once the pills started to make me feel ill, I got frightened and ran down the street to the phone box. I called an ambulance.

Soon I was in Putney Hospital being looked after. It was suggested to me that I might like to go to another hospital for a while where I would be helped to get better. I thought this was a great idea, believing I would find something that was missing in my life, people who cared, people to talk to.

So, on 24th July 1969, I entered West Park Psychiatric Hospital for the first time. I was exactly one week off my 19th birthday. A duty doctor examined me physically, and I was let loose on the day room, with all the other patients. I was on my own. I didn’t think I was as bad as the others. They were all a lot older than me, and were behaving in ways I had never seen people behave before. One woman came right up to me, stared at me straight in the eyes, demanding to know what colour eyes I had. That’s all she wanted to know. Even though I was frightened to begin with, I soon got used to everybody.

On my birthday, a student nurse, same age as me, presented me with a big bunch of hydrangeas. I found out later, she had picked them from the grounds. I felt special.

I had at least 7 visits to West Park over a period of 3 or 4 years. My original diagnosis was depression I couldn’t argue with that.  Antidepressants were prescribed, as well as sleeping tablets. I think the sleeping tablets were more to benefit the night staff.

There were approximately 12 beds on the ground floor, where new admissions went. I slept there for about 3 nights, then I was shifted to the upstairs ward, where there were about 20 beds.

The washroom consisted of several washbasins, no bath or shower. Those of us who smoked, would open the bathroom window, blowing smoke out, and throwing the butts out the window. We weren’t allowed to smoke upstairs, but that didn’t stop us. Baths were allowed, but had to be supervised. They didn’t want anyone to drown. The bathroom was downstairs.

On awakening , we’d have a wash, get dressed and go downstairs to the dining room for breakfast. I was on Roseberry Ward known as the female reception. Downstairs consisted of the nurses room, where the medications were kept, the sleeping area for new admissions and those requiring more care, and the day room, which consisted of many armchairs, a TV, and a piano. Nobody ever played the piano. Then there was the dining room, with a kitchen behind the serving area.

Just out in the corridor, near the staircase, was a padded cell. I was put in there once, for crying. I was sleeping downstairs, so I couldn’t have been there long. It was night the others were asleep, and I missed my friends, and the boyfriend I had broken up with. I was told to stop crying, but I couldn’t. So  I has given an injection against my will, and put in the padded cell. This would have been terrifying, but the injection subdued me.

I only got to talk to a doctor the once, after that, he would acknowledge you briefly when he was on his rounds. There was no group therapy, no talk therapy, just medication, Electro Convulsive Therapy, and plenty of food.

Once I went for a walk in the grounds. Apparently I was not supposed to, but because I was  bored with sitting around for days on end, I took off for the social centre. The Social Centre was one of the best parts of being in the hospital. Men and women could mix together –  there was a canteen, and often we had fun. But on this particular occasion, I was still in my nightwear.  When I was found, I was apparently in trouble, but because I was so drugged, everything went over my head. I was to pay for my transgression though. They transferred me to a locked ward. Now this was scary.

I hated it. There were some very dangerous looking women there, and the nurses would stand with their backs to the wall, watching everyone intently.

In Roseberry Ward, some women were made to take the contraceptive pill, whether they wanted to or not. I can’t remember if I had to take it. I suppose they didn’t want any  pregnancies, but at the time, I found it very offensive.

Most of the time, I was very compliant, although I was admitted a few times in psychosis.

Years later, I realised these psychoses were a result of frequent use of LSD, marijuana, amphetamines, valium, and alcohol. But I was then diagnosed with schizophrenia, and prescribed stronger and stronger medication.

I met some very colourful characters in the hospital.

Fifi was a middle aged French woman. She was less than 5ft tall. She seemed to have a lot of power, and privileges. I think she was a long time patient, probably institutionalised at that stage. She seemed to be in charge of the kitchen. She could also get cigarettes for anyone, but you had to trade something with her. Once I traded some very expensive French perfume, a gift from a visitor, for a packet of cigarettes.

There was a woman who vacuumed the huge carpet area every day. I think she was another long term patient. She was huge very tall and big built. She was either African or West Indian. Either way she never spoke, but when she came close with her vacuum cleaner, no one needed asking to lift their feet! Everyone was scared of her, and it turned out with good reason. Once she went into a rage, and it took six male nurses to hold her down, and subdue her.

There were times I was sent to Occupational Therapy. I quite liked this, because it was another chance to socialise. Most people were making crafts, mosaic ashtrays, jewellery, and baskets. (So that’s where the term basket case came from?) I spent most of my time on the old typewriters, although I did make a lampshade once. My mother put it up in the lounge room.

On another occasion I was put to work in the geriatric  ward. My job was to make the beds and sweep the floor. Sometimes a nurse would get me to feed one of the patients, and I was glad too, because the nurses were, in my opinion, very cruel to the elderly. I was paid five shillings a week for my efforts.

Apart from all the dramas, and injustices, I have some fond memories of West Park Hospital. I had a very troubled childhood, and adolescence, through no fault of my own, and for all it’s failings, I felt very safe in West Park. I know that I was in no position to take care of myself, and if it weren’t for West Park, I may well have not survived.”

Josephine O’Sullivan

13 thoughts on “West Park Hospital, Epsom – A Personal History”

  1. Irene Simpson says:

    My aunt, Lilian Axton, was committed to West Park Mental Hospital in 1919 following the death of her fiance at the end of WW1. She went into a state of shock and her parents were forced to have her committed. She gave birth to a baby girl in August 1919. As children, we were told by our mother (Lilian’s sister Daisy) that the baby was stillborn. However, following research of our ancestry I have discovered that the child was born in West Park and christened Lily. Sadly or not, she died a few months later in 1920. Her mother Lilian remained in West Park Mental Hospital until her death in 1988 at the age of 93. Our family feels a great deal of sadness and remorse that nothing more was done for her. I have her death certificate but we do not know where she was buried. Are you able to provide me with this information? or any information at all regarding the many years she spent at West Park. Thank you in anticipation.

    1. ann waterman says:

      I trained in West Park during the 70’s and can remember a lady on one of the geriatric wards who had been there for years and had had a child. She constantly walked around the ward like a caged animal making noises – I felt so sorry for her. She had become institutionalised and shouldn’t have been kept there past her initial illness. Attitudes were very different in those days when she was admitted and the stigma of a child born out of wed-lock immense. Sorry I can’t help with any other details.

  2. shan says:

    Hi, im conducting a project looking at asylums and the stigma around traditional mental illness outlook and was wondering if there is any more personal stories about any experience in an asylum or friends/family

    if there is any, please contact me.

    1. Ryan says:

      Hi I was a patent in West park juvenile assment unit twice once in 1993 and then in 1995, each time for around 4 mounths. It was a very poor standard hospital it’s was for PTSD and solvent abuse. I would be happy to tell you about some of my experience there

      1. Ryan says:

        I’m trying to find an old friend from there and her name is Johanna press her dad’s name is nick press dose anyone know how I can go about finding her??

  3. Karen Cole says:

    I worked at West Park as a trainee mental nurse from 1985-86. It was a profoundly sad and sobering experience. I still have vivid memories of the patients I met on Guildford Ward and Farmside. The lack of therapy and simple respect was a huge shock. I didn’t stay on and qualify.

  4. Josie says:

    Hi, I was wondering if anyone trained as a nurse at west park around the mid to late 1960’s that might recall a Michael o Brian who was training at the same time. Michael was originally from co Kerry in Ireland. Any information would be greatly appreciated. Thanks Josie. Email [email protected]

    1. Helen says:

      Did anyone know Audrey Hyland she was admitted in the 70’s

  5. Graeme Sergeant says:

    I am looking for any information on Carnegie Brown.Who was in West Park around 1957 to the early 1960

    1. Ian thomson says:

      My aunt Maret Haugas was at West Park in 1960 and would most likely have known Carnegie Brown. That is not much help to you, I know, but it may spark other people’s memories.

  6. Ian Thomson says:

    Hello. I am interested to know if anyone remembers my aunt, Maret Haugas, who was at West Park in 1960 for a year or so. She had been at the Royal College of Art in London and was Estonian by birth.

    1. Chris Thomason says:

      Hi Ian – your aunt Maret Haugas was an artist I presume?
      I have an original oil painting signed “Maret” from the 1980s I believe.
      Might this be your aunt?

  7. Sharon Vallejo says:

    Hi I have spent many years searching for my cousin Victor Barnes whom I always believed to have been an inpatient at Cane Hill until recently I discovered he may have been in West Park in the late 70’s. I have exhausted Ancestry trying to find some record but had no luck. Does anyone remember him, I believe he was born mid to late 40’s. Any information would be greatly appreciated.

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